Breaking up Is Hard to Do
I decided it was time for a break up last week. We weren't working out. I tried. I really did. I wanted it to work. We'd been trying to stay together since last year. We would gain some headway, and then everything would change. It was such a love-hate relationship. So, on Friday, I realized I was done. I couldn't go on any more. Perhaps we can remain friends, but not right now. We need time apart. A lot of time. Months, maybe a year or two. It's both our faults and this is for the best.
I'm talking about my novel Virtuoso. I wrote that novel for NaNoWriMo 2009. Off and on last year and off and on most of this year, I tried rewriting it. The first ten chapters are pretty good, but it was falling apart after that. I didn't love the story any more. Nadia wasn't the same. I wasn't the same. I realized in order to fix the story I either had to take out the paranormal elements, which would make it a completely different story, or take out Derek. Right now, I'm just too tired of it. Maybe one day I'll take those first ten chapters and continue from there without Derek. The middle and the ending would be different in a lot of places. The novel will probably be more novella-length, but it could work. We just need time apart, though.
So now I went back to my first love: The Phoenix Prophetess. I read through it on Friday-Sunday and realized how much I loved it. My passion was reignited. I can't wait each day to work on it. I have a month to edit/polish it, but I can do it. I want to do it. I should've worked on it instead of Virtuoso, but I heard first novels rarely do well. Oh, the writing is a bit rough, but the story is sound and exciting. Oh, gods, seriously, this story is so awesome. I started The Phoenix Prophetess on January 15, 2009 and I finished the first draft on September 15, 2009. Two years later and I'm editing it, loving it.
I don't know what will happen when I pitch The Phoenix Prophetess at the James River Writers Conference in October, but I feel in my heart that I made the right decision. Whatever happens, The Phoenix Prophetess is the novel I want to represent me as a writer. I'm proud to put my name on it.
Breaking up may be hard to do, but sometimes it really is for the best.
Have you broken up with a story before?