It's the first Wednesday of the month, so you know what that means ... it's time for another Insecure Writer's Support Group meeting. IWSG was created by the awesome ninja captain Alex J. Cavanaugh, and you can find out the other members of the group here.
As you see in my blog post title, I'm pretty much insecure about editing this month. I don't know if it was from the craziness of April, working to publish Men of Foxwick this month, announcing my debut novel for next year, just catching up on everything in May, or the summer schedule starting at work (means much less sleep), but it has all left me rather anxious when I sit down to edit my own work.
This anxiety hit me the hardest when getting ready to do the final edit of Men of Foxwick. I opened up my critique partner's notes and my document. Then, I had an anxiety attack complete with the feelings of apprehension, trouble concentrating, pounding heart, shortness of breath, and twitches. I pushed through and managed to edit the first story in the collection, but it took me a good part of the day to do so. Then, it took me several days to edit the second short story. Another week to edit two stories, and then on Sunday, I finished the last story. That's right. It took me off and on three weeks to do a final edit on five stories (around 27,000 words).
The thing is I'm not sure why I was so nervous about it. They're great stories, even better now with the edits. Maybe it's because I haven't published anything since last November or because I haven't revealed the cover art yet, except to a few people. *shrugs*
Or maybe it's because I'm falling further and further behind in everything I need to do, so I keep getting distracted when I need to be editing. *sighs*
So, yeah, insecurity, I have it this month. And I also apologize for not visiting blogs quite as much the last couple weeks. I've been so busy trying to edit that I haven't had the time to do much else. Everything should calm down next week, though, since I'm almost ready to publish Men of Foxwick.
What are you insecure about?